A Taurus Season Poem / Reflection

Are you feeling a call to slow down?

Something a bit different for you today… these words came to me in a meditation. I don’t normally share my personal journal reflections word for word, but this felt different- like it was meant to be shared.

These last few weeks have been challenging - and I can’t exactly put my finger on why. Possibly the major transit of Neptune into Aries after 14 years in Pisces… a big shift. Possibly the gnarly Saturn / Natal Sun transits I’ve had (fellow Pisces you’ll also have experienced this). Possibly the start of a new 7 year cycle as I turned 42.

Whatever it is, I’ve felt quite low, slow, and like I just needed to rest a lot. Which also felt odd as normally this time of year here with spring fully in bloom is like ‘go time’.

Our conditioning makes it hard to recognise rest as necessary and fruitful. We always feel we “should” be DOING all the things. All the messaging around us now even from the ‘seasonal living’ crew is that now is the time to take action… but for me right now, it’s about sporadic bursts and rests. My Conscious Sun (life’s work) in Gene Keys is Gate 22 which is all about compassion, and that starts with self-compassion and gently asking the inner critic to take a back seat and pipe down.

Learning to receive…

It feels uncomfortable to share this, but I am allowing my husband to support me financially at the moment. I am not #bossbabe or #mumboss at the moment. I am not hitting my 10k months (nor do I need to). I am not posting consistently. I am not sure what my plan is for the rest of the year yet. And instead of striving to ‘get there’ it’s coming through loud and clear that I just need to rest and allow myself grace and space. To allow others to support me with no sense of ‘debt’ about it. Just to receive it. It feels like I need to learn to be illogical. Like the more I fully meet myself where I am at and rest, the more abundant I’ll be. Rather than striving to do more in order to receive. Yet the patterns of behaviour are so deep it’s hard to just stop and allow.

So this is what I wrote right after a meditation that I felt called to share…

The Sacred Pause

You need to be broken

to grow.

There must be death

for anything new

to be born.

The ash left behind

nourishes

what is coming.

Release.

Surrender.

Nothing

is ever truly lost.

Through letting go,

everything

arrives.

Your only task

is to be

who you are -

no one else

can do that.

Treat life

as a playground,

a quiet experiment.

Be curious.

Be open.

You are worthy

simply by

being here.

Nothing more

is needed.

Some seasons

stretch into stillness.

Let them.

The further the arrow

is pulled back,

the greater its flight.

Rest

in the tension.

Breathe

in the silence.

Let go

of the noise.

You will soon fly

beyond

what you’ve known.

The distance

is waiting -

calm,

open,

still.

This is not a race.

This is not a rush.

This

is the sacred pause.

When fully embraced,

The broken will heal the broken.